This weekend is Joe's cousin's wedding and I swear to god, you'd think it was a broadway production or the president coming into town. What I want to know is, why does everything on his side of the family have to be such a damn production? I've already been yanked around in every direction today because Joe may not be able to go if the doctors tell him he can't ride in a car for the hour and a half to two hours it's going to take to get to Harsens Island, so I was freaking out on how I was going to get there and blah blah blah. So then Judy calls me and goes on a tirade about how Joe is starting to use this clot business to back out of everything. I have to say in some ways, she is right, he does use his clot to back out of a LOT of stuff, but then again, I can't doubt what he says about what the doctor is telling him. He got a bad INR result back today, so now he's in a mood.
On top of that, I may be losing my job in two days. I'm calling Thursday Judgement Day because Joe goes to the hematologist to find out the results on his first round of blood tests and I find out what's happening with my job. I'm not sure how much more stress I can take right now, to be quite honest. I don't want to go to this damn wedding w/o Joe and pretend to have a good time. I don't want to deal with Joe and his bloodclot anymore. I don't want to deal with not having a job because right now we have NO MONEY in our account... barely enough to get by, truth be told.
This just seals my whole decision in not rushing into have a baby. I see how happy Amy is right about it all and I think "maybe I will do it" but then again, right now I can't see it in the cards. That would be a big hell no.
What to do, what to do....
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