Weight Watchers and Shoes

It's been a long time since I last posted anything on this site! WOW! Merry Christmas and all that jazz! How have things been with me, you ask? Well, good, to a point. Joe and I are still dealing with his damn clot. He was hospitalized last week because they (the doctors) found another clot behind his knee. THEN we found out it was part of the original clot that they found in May. BUT... get this: Joe found out this week that his clot was quite large... I guess it started at his mid-calf and made its way up his leg to his thigh. And NO ONE told him. WTF????? I don't get it????? I'm alittle pissed off about that, needless to say. SO... at this point, It looks like Joe is going to be getting a second opinion over at Providence. UGH. It's taken a toll on the two of us. I just want my Joe back.
I also started going to Weight Watchers in October, and have lost 6.2 pounds since I joined the actual meetings. Since I've been in Weight Watchers online and the meetings, I've lost a total of 14.4 pounds. Not bad. I just wish I could be small like I was before I met Joe. I know it's because I "fell off the wagon" (like Oprah) and didn't watch what I was eating. And drank too much beer. Gotta love that, hm? I feel like I'm constantly wondering when my next meal is going to be and what I'm going to eat. I have started purchasing Lean Cuisine's and Smart Ones because it's just easier. Joe is a huge fussy eater, and a meat and potatoes man, which means it's totally not weight watcher friendly. It's just so hard. I bought this amazing cookbook last week that has some wonderful recipes in it. I want Joe to take a look at the book and try to pick out recipes he might like to try.
ANYHOO... so I've been going to FitZone and having a blast. I just wish I could just drop off the pounds I've gained... let's see... I gained 40, need to lose 26 more pounds. Weight Watchers wanted me to lose 23 pounds by January 16th, but it doesn't look like I'm gonna make it. Talk about a bummer. I desperately want to lose this weight... I find myself depressed because I worked my ass off to lose the weight initially, but it's a constant struggle and finding my perfect size... but what IS my perfect size????? Sometimes I see these people who starve themselves and I wonder, could I do that??? GOD, I hope not. Ew.
Enough of the depressing shit... I went out Christmas Shopping today and really had a great time. Ended up over at Payless, buying myself some cute ass brown suede boots, these cute black oxfords and then two pair of sporty shoes. I love shoes. Who doesn't???

Unemployment

Today is the last day of my unemployment, officially. I still have two more days of freedom, then it's back to work at Raymond James Financial over in Southfield. This is one of the headquarters... it's on Telegraph and Civic Center Drive, and the kicker? It's seven miles away! Isn't that something? My drive to Dearborn was 12 miles one way! I'm saving so much in drive time, it's amazing! Part of me feels rather sad, because I've enjoyed being off and doing what I want, when I want. In the past two months, I submitted over 40 resumes and had three job interviews. I got a job with the last company I interviewed for, obviously. Good company... they have 100% tuition reimbursement... that was shocking! I'm going to be training for awhile, then I think I'm going into operations. Right up my alley! I participated as an extra for a pilot being shot up in West Bloomfield for HBO... that was the other day. Even tho we sat around ALOT, it was worth it. I had a great time and am going to do it again! It inspired me to submit my resume and headshot to RealStyleonline, and am ordering a couple headshots to send to i group. cool! Rio is going to do my new headshots, as soon as I get some cashola. I'm going to use my check for the shoot as part of the headshot payment, and I get paid at Raymond James on October 15th.
I also joined a gym - FitZone for Women, a mile and a half from my house. I pay $29 a month to do whatever I want. Tomorrow morning, I'm going to a cardio blast class there. Then it's on to get my nails and feet done. I had my hair done yesterday. I painted my workroom. Had lunch with my girlfriends from Ford.
It's funny, because I honestly am sooooo glad I am out of automotive. I know not all businesses are perfect, and there is still a risk of losing my job, but it's a great new start for me. I'm excited and can see myself there for at least five years.
There are so many things going on in my life to be positive about... things are doing well, and I am hoping it continues. The spring was so difficult, and I'd like to see things turn around.
I had to take a pay cut for this job, but it's okay. I don't see it as a huge loss. Why? It's a step forward, you know? I think it's exciting!

Why Does Everything Have to be such a Drama?

This weekend is Joe's cousin's wedding and I swear to god, you'd think it was a broadway production or the president coming into town. What I want to know is, why does everything on his side of the family have to be such a damn production? I've already been yanked around in every direction today because Joe may not be able to go if the doctors tell him he can't ride in a car for the hour and a half to two hours it's going to take to get to Harsens Island, so I was freaking out on how I was going to get there and blah blah blah. So then Judy calls me and goes on a tirade about how Joe is starting to use this clot business to back out of everything. I have to say in some ways, she is right, he does use his clot to back out of a LOT of stuff, but then again, I can't doubt what he says about what the doctor is telling him. He got a bad INR result back today, so now he's in a mood.
On top of that, I may be losing my job in two days. I'm calling Thursday Judgement Day because Joe goes to the hematologist to find out the results on his first round of blood tests and I find out what's happening with my job. I'm not sure how much more stress I can take right now, to be quite honest. I don't want to go to this damn wedding w/o Joe and pretend to have a good time. I don't want to deal with Joe and his bloodclot anymore. I don't want to deal with not having a job because right now we have NO MONEY in our account... barely enough to get by, truth be told.
This just seals my whole decision in not rushing into have a baby. I see how happy Amy is right about it all and I think "maybe I will do it" but then again, right now I can't see it in the cards. That would be a big hell no.
What to do, what to do....

I'm Not Stupid...

Why is it that I can do so fabulously in a class and then bomb tests? I finished my second grad school class and while I can say I am happy it is done, I'm bummed because I only got a C in the class, not the B I was hoping for. It's an online class and you have to be very disciplined, I have discovered, and log on EVERY DAY to see what is going on. Because of the events of the last few months, I wasn't able to do that, otherwise I think that would have helped me immensely. I'm just glad I at least passed the damn class! Final grades and cumulative are not available yet, so I am yet waiting to find out what is going on! This class was called Legal Issues in Business, and I do have admit, I enjoyed it a lot. So much so, I am actually considering applying to law school to see if I can get in. I think being a business law lawyer would be cool as hell... or an environmental law lawyer. I wouldn't want to be a "get rich quick" lawyer, those people kind of tee me off. Always after the big buck. So I am considering it. I may apply to Cooley in Detroit and go from there.
ANYHOO... so on to the next round of classes. I'm taking an online class called "Business Ethics", which should be interesting. I'm looking forward to it.

My First Real Blog

Interestingly enough, I've never really had a blog before. Why? You ask? Not really sure... I had some problems trying to put one together on this site a few months back, got pissed off and didn't go back. Silly, I suppose. ANYHOO... so maybe my life isn't that interesting to others who may come along and read this, but my life tends to read like a screenplay and there are days when I wonder if I'm on candid camera.
I'm not going to ramble on and on right now... it's late and I need to get ready for work for tomorrow. Good times. Besides, I hear a Dove bar calling my name. HAHAHAHAHA. Forgive me, I'm alittle giddy right now... I just finished my final for my legal issues in business class, and I just want to pull a B in the class. Right now, my grade is between a C+ and a B-. So keep your fingers crossed, dollfaces.