Weight Watchers and Shoes

It's been a long time since I last posted anything on this site! WOW! Merry Christmas and all that jazz! How have things been with me, you ask? Well, good, to a point. Joe and I are still dealing with his damn clot. He was hospitalized last week because they (the doctors) found another clot behind his knee. THEN we found out it was part of the original clot that they found in May. BUT... get this: Joe found out this week that his clot was quite large... I guess it started at his mid-calf and made its way up his leg to his thigh. And NO ONE told him. WTF????? I don't get it????? I'm alittle pissed off about that, needless to say. SO... at this point, It looks like Joe is going to be getting a second opinion over at Providence. UGH. It's taken a toll on the two of us. I just want my Joe back.
I also started going to Weight Watchers in October, and have lost 6.2 pounds since I joined the actual meetings. Since I've been in Weight Watchers online and the meetings, I've lost a total of 14.4 pounds. Not bad. I just wish I could be small like I was before I met Joe. I know it's because I "fell off the wagon" (like Oprah) and didn't watch what I was eating. And drank too much beer. Gotta love that, hm? I feel like I'm constantly wondering when my next meal is going to be and what I'm going to eat. I have started purchasing Lean Cuisine's and Smart Ones because it's just easier. Joe is a huge fussy eater, and a meat and potatoes man, which means it's totally not weight watcher friendly. It's just so hard. I bought this amazing cookbook last week that has some wonderful recipes in it. I want Joe to take a look at the book and try to pick out recipes he might like to try.
ANYHOO... so I've been going to FitZone and having a blast. I just wish I could just drop off the pounds I've gained... let's see... I gained 40, need to lose 26 more pounds. Weight Watchers wanted me to lose 23 pounds by January 16th, but it doesn't look like I'm gonna make it. Talk about a bummer. I desperately want to lose this weight... I find myself depressed because I worked my ass off to lose the weight initially, but it's a constant struggle and finding my perfect size... but what IS my perfect size????? Sometimes I see these people who starve themselves and I wonder, could I do that??? GOD, I hope not. Ew.
Enough of the depressing shit... I went out Christmas Shopping today and really had a great time. Ended up over at Payless, buying myself some cute ass brown suede boots, these cute black oxfords and then two pair of sporty shoes. I love shoes. Who doesn't???